| | Lately it seems like the only reason for my existence is just to make others happy. Wether its using me for what I have or degrading me, its all the same. Im just a convenience for when you're not feeling the best of times. Dont worry, Ill sacrfice my happiness for yours. Everyone needs to feel happy right? I guess the people have sunk so low in this world they see that it's humorous and entertaining to make people feel horrible. Just because you feel horrible and shitty doesnt mean you have to make others suffer too. The thought of people abusing kindness sickens me. Im ready and eager to graduate and get out of this hell hole where people are immature and as fake as Britney Spears' boobs. Im tired of having to put up with shit that I shouldnt have to. Its sad that the only time people ever talk to me is if they either want something, need help with work, or just want to fucking tell me how fucking stupid I am. When do my feelings ever come into consideration? Are you so drowned in yourself that you cant think about anyone else unless they have significance to you? Nothing I do is appreciated. I dont expect anything in return for what I do, but you think the least you could do was show me a little respect, but I should know better than to expect that. Im not going to be doing things against my will anymore for others. For now, I guess you better keep taking advantage of who I am and use me up as much as possible, because once Im gone.. Im gone for good. No more forced smiles, hesistant laughs, no more anything. Youre going to have to fucking move on without someone holding your hand constantly. All you're doing is holding me back there with you when I should be moving forward. Im not going to kiss your asses anymore. You can go ahead and keep talking your shit and pretending you care all you want. Just remember.. Im not always going to be here to bring you back up on your feet. And dont bother asking me if Im talking about you, because Im just going to lie to you, smile, and do whatever I can to make sure you're the one thats happy because my happiness ran out the moment you came into my life. |
| | Posted 3/16/2006 3:02 PM - 15 Views - 6 eProps - 4 comments
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